Monday, February 25, 2008

its monday, AGAIN.

Today was, once again, a typical monday for me. Maggie and I stayed up until at least 3 A.M. doing homework and what not .. and yes, we got up and went to our nine o clock class. Shocking, I know. School went fine today. We had an in class critical writing assignment for history that was kind of obnoxious but that is about it. Then we had to come home and take an online test for music class, but for some reason our stupid ass COMCAST internet wouldn't connect. So we packed up our stuff and decided to go out to my dads house to take the test. On the way to my dads we stopped at this really fun store and bought some cute windbreakers with our greek letters on it!!! The last thing I needed to do was spend more money. With my Panama trip coming up, I have spent a whole lot of money and it is getting kind of obnoxious. So we get to my dads, and we made some really good chicken alfredo pasta. Then we decided to get online and search for Rascal Flatts concert tickets. Suprisingly we found some reallly really good seats at a decent price so we bought them. I was super sad about this whole me going out of town for spring break because Mags isn't going.. and I am going to be gone THE WHOLE TRIP so we weren't going to get to do anything fun together. So friday is our day now, we will get all dressed up and go to hear one of our favorite bands play!! WHOOO HOOO. I am actually really excited about that. Then we took our music test, which I looked up all the answers to and somehow still missed one question when Maggie didn't look up the answers and got them all right... frustrating.. I know!!!! Then we decided to tan, and watch a hilarius video. We then headed off to the PHI MU sketti dinner where we saw my girl JEN. hahaha love it!
now I am wasting my life away in the library.. studying.. and wishing I was asleep.. or AT RASCAL FLATTS/BEACH.

Friday, February 22, 2008

myself.

I am living a pretty good life. I do what I want, almost all the time. I live with my bestfriend, Maggie, which is ballin. Mostly cause we're really pretty, and have a lots of friends. We are actually the coolest people you'll ever meet. I am just kidding on that statement. We have so much fun everyday. We have all our classes together, so we wake up, drink some slimfast and get to class.. about ten minutes late usually, due to Maggie. We then come home to our house that is sparkling clean almost all the time, contrary to popular beleif. It has it's days that it gets a little messy but that is just because sometimes we don't have time to keep the living room spotless and what not. But mostly our rooms are all cute, and pretty and clean.. ALL THE TIME. Mine is teal, black, and white. I think it looks pretty cool. Brooxies is brown, and baby blue. Hers is very pretty as well. Maggies room is salmon/coral with no real theme besides tropical. But it definately fits her personality. I like it a lot, in fact I'm in her room right now. ANYWAY so I'm mostly writing all this pointless stuff because I don't feel good and I had one last blog. So half this stuff, lets just not take seriously.. K thanks? so, about my life... I am in Kappa Delta, and I absolutely love every second of it. Mostly all I do with my life, is hang out with Maggie, and be happy. I am absolutely pumped that Maggie is now single and fabulous and ready to go out and have a good time with me. I always hated that when she was with kyle, we couldn't really go out!! So we went out last night, ON A SCHOOL NIGHT, had a ballin ass time with the sigma chi boys and stayed out till like 4 and then even made it to class this mornin. It was pretty cool

Thursday, February 21, 2008

step UP 2.

So Maggie and I went to see the new movie step up 2. It was soooo good. I cannot explain to you how much I liked that movie. I like to dance, so I mean I guess that is a big part of why I liked it, but there was also a reallllllly realllllly hot guy in it J. I’m just playin that is not the only reason why I liked it. It was a good movie because the main character in it was not afraid to be who she was on and off the streets. It is an inspiration to know that there are people out there that use their talents for good things. No matter what life threw her way, she always could find a way to turn it into something worth fighting for, and not giving up on. That is a good quality to have..kinda like the old adage, “ look at the glass half full, rather than half empty.” Nothing in life goes quite as planned but that is never a reason to stop living the life you were given. Even if the people in your life walk out on you, it is not the end of the world. There are so many people out there that will support you, even when you think all hope is lost.
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

no name.

So today was my grandfathers birthday. If my grandmother, his wife, was alive it would have been hers too. How weird is that, that they would have the same birth DAY and YEAR. I think it’s fate. I believe in that kind of stuff ya know? True love, miracles, the whole nine yards. I missed my grandmother a whole lot today. She died when I was in fifth grade, but I loved her with all my heart. It seems like a different life, the one that I had her in. But today was just one of those days where you sit there and you can’t get someone out of your mind. In fact, I have been doing that a lot lately. I will catch myself thinking and missing important people from my past. I guess it’s good to relive the memories.. but sometimes I wish they’d stay untouched. No memories come without pain, and when you can’t bring someone back, reminiscing can sometimes bring even more heartache. I have weird days where I stay sad, for no particular reason. Not depressed, just sad.. like as if I wanted the whole day to go a different way. That is basically the kind of day that today was.. but like I said in my last post, this whole week has been prettttty lame-o. And for those who read my last post as well, my nails are driving me insane.. still.
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word choice

Here is an excerpt from an essay I wrote last semester. The part I am sharing is about word choice, and how an author can use it.
The way any author places words in a sentence is vital to the total structure. Lorde’s unique choice of words creates a defined image in one’s head. For an example, “There were little violently yellow iced cakes with scalloped edges called ‘marigolds’”(567). All the reader can see is a little square, bright yellow cake, which immediately triggers a small craving for something sweet. These words she uses to describe the marigold cake make the first connection between the young girl and the reader. It gives one a sense of belonging, as if the reader is on the train going to Washington, D.C. as well. The author also uses diction to disguise the theme, by hinting at the fact that the family is black through her word choice. This quote is in the fourth paragraph of Lorde’s essay, “’marigolds,’ that came from Cushman’s Bakery”(567). If one previously knew the meaning of the word “cush”, which is black or burnt, the reader would realize when the author says “Cushman’s Bakery” (567) she is referring to the fact that the is family coming from a predominately black neighborhood. Once this is established one would realize that the family, too, is black. Lorde’s word choice works in her essay because it gives the reader a chance to stay tuned to the story, because it’s unpredictable and slightly misleading.
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anger

I don’t give a shit if this stupid blog is gonna turn into two hundred words because I am so angry right now.. I am exhausted, and totally ready to be asleep. Out of sight, out of mind. But I thought to myself, self, you should write a blog since you haven’t written any this week and I know I’ll be annoyed if I have to do them all at once. So I set out to write a blog, and it was a pretty good one too.. on the concept of colors and how we actually see reflected light and what not.. I was so close to the end, and I was going to highlight something, and somehow my jack ass computer high lighted the entire blog, EXCEPT THE FIRST WORD, and then continued to delete my entire post. This is just not my week. This whole week has been some crap. I’ve been ready for it to have been over since Monday.. that is pretty sad isn’t it? I am also slightly annoyed at my finger nails, because its time for them to be re done, and they are too long so it is making it feel really odd and uncomfortable to type.. that is probably half the problem.
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Friday, February 15, 2008

Part 2

One of America’s biggest issues is its’ citizens voting out of guilt rather than obligation. There is a more noble reason to vote, outside of being pressured. Yes, it is your civil duty to vote and to make an informed decision about who you elect to put in office. If you aren’t going to take the time to research and vote for someone that you agree with from most standpoints, then there is no reason for your voice in the election anyway. Elections should be based only on those who feel the need to vote without any influence. The vote is yours, no one else’s. Being forced to vote takes the freedom out of the whole think anyway.
Not everyone that chooses not to vote does it out of laziness. Some people don’t vote because there isn’t a candidate that they would like in office. That is a legitimate reason to withhold from voting. No one should be ridiculed for choosing not to vote when they don’t support any of the candidates. It is a hell of a lot better than voting just to say you did and then complaining about the person that gets the office. Voting is a choice, and a privilege; something to be taken very seriously. It is the highest form of freedom, to be able to freely choose who governs you.
It is your civil responsibility as a citizen to make an informed vote, not to just vote. It does us no good to have those types of voters in the box office. They do nothing but tear away from the idea of “government, chosen by the people.” They turn the saying more into “government, chosen by the idiots.”

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Get the Vote Essay Part One

The first thing the article triggered in my mind was back to my U.S History Class in high school. I had a professor that was also a college professor. He started off the first day by telling us how he treats his college students. Supposedly he teaches in a large auditorium and on the first day of their classes, once everyone is seated he asks the students to raise their hands if they voted. All the students that voted he makes them sit on one side of the auditorium, and those who didn’t on the opposite side. He in turn only teaches to the side that did vote for the first month of the course. He said he had no obligation to those who had no obligation to our country. Frankly, I think it just pissed him off. He was kind of a firecracker if you know what I mean. But as I read this article I kept thinking the same things I thought that first day in his class, do we really HAVE to vote?
My opinion is that no, we do not have to vote. I think that it would be better to not vote, rather than to make an uniformed decision on something that you have no idea about. There is no point in going to cast a ballot if you know nothing about the different candidates. I mean how would you decide? By the length of their names, as suggested in the article? I would have no idea how to pick one.
I think that it is everyone’s duty to make a decision based on their morals, values, and beliefs upon who they want in office. Not just for the big elections, but all the way down to the small ones. There is no patriotism in voting, unless you are doing it to better our country. If your choice was not premeditated then, there should be no pride in your choice or your country.
Think about Bush, the President. Did you vote for him? If so, was it well researched and backed with reason. If not, what was your reasoning?
So many people today complain about the president and how horrible he is. But all those who voted for him can just shut the fuck up. Half of them voted for him for no reason. Hell, they probably voted for him because his dad was a president. That sounds like a fair reason right? No, that is a lame excuse to put off your civil responsibility to our country. I am so annoyed with people that trash talk Bush, when they are half the reason he is in office. I bet that he won because of all the last minute voters who had no idea who to pick and just recognized the name.
It is your civil responsibility as a citizen to make an informed vote, not to just vote. It does us no good to have those types of voters in the box office. They do nothing but tear away from the idea of government, chosen by the people. They turn that in more in to government, chosen by the idiots.

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Monday, February 11, 2008

continuation..

I also get kinda frustrated because of some of my friends... they are being wierd.
I skipped my senior year of highschool, so alot of my friends that I grew up with are finishing up their senior year. We have all remained friends and what not, and we still are. But for some reason they all think that me being in college and moving away from Bartlett has made me a tad bit inconvenient. I HATE THAT. I beleive that a friendship is about what you put into it and not about convenience. It makes me so mad when they all sketch out on me for the weekend because they don't want to drive 10 miles to come over or what not, UNLESS they want a place to drink and stay. I know they don't use me and we all still love each other... but I really don't hear from them as often as I used to and I'm not putting out AS much effort as I used to because I realized I was pretty much the only one doing it!! I mean a phone rings both ways doesn't it?

It's not actually all of them that get me so frustrated, it's one girl in particular. In fact it's the one I cared about the most. She just thinks that I'm too far out of the way to make a priority in life, and honestly that sucks.

People can be really inconsiderate and selfish.. but oh well.. my life goes on.

I AM SO FRUSTRATED with school, because I am trying MUCH harder than I was last semester to make good grades, I mean I made all A's and B's last semester but this time I wanted to make straight A's.

I have been trying really hard in my math class, coming to class, taking notes, listening, doing the homework, and asking questions. We took our first test last week and guess what I got?

A effing 56. And he is not giving any extra credit and the only grades we will have all semester is 3 tests and a final..
so straight A's are shot to hell probably.

I HATE THIS

hmm.. life

Has anyone besides me ever gotten to a point in your life when you feel like everything is frustrating.

Well that's where I am right now. Everyday when I wake up, I get frustrated about SOMETHING.

I have made a lot of big decisions in the past few months, and now I'm wondering about them, and the affect they have on me. I broke up with the boyfriend in September, that my friend was a smart move. I have been single, and loving it since then.. until now. I don't know why but all the sudden I feel like all the good moments in life, aren't as good as they could be because I don't really have a special person to share them with. So mostly I tell all my exciting information to Maggie. Which isn't a bad thing, in fact I appreciate her alot.. :) I'd be totally lost without her.. but at the same time, it's time for someone (a boy) to come along. I have talked on and off to different guys but none of them have really interested me. and that is frustrating. It's also hard because all three girls that I live with have serious boyfriends, and I'm the one living the fabulous single life, and I guess sometimes that gets to me.

Another problem in my life, is with my family.
I moved out to be closer to campus and all, and trust me I LOVE IT. But I never get to see my dad anymore, and we aren't as close and I don't really like that.. same with my brother. I see my mom on a regular basis, but things are just kinda crazy with my family and sometimes I really miss my dad and brother more than I let on. It sucks..

typical monday..

I'm wondering if there is any such thing as a "good monday"... I was under the impression that our movie reviews were due on tuesday so I stayed up until 3 in the mornin watching coach carter... I had no idea how long that movie was until I watched it last night, obviously. Then for some unknown reason I slept like shit. Then around 5 or 6 when I couldn't sleep any more, I got up and took care of my dog and just laid around in bed until 8 ish. I had every intention to go to my 9:10 class that I CAN NOT MAKE MYSELF GO TO, but sure enough i fell asleep untill like 9:50, so that class was shot to hell. Then I was excited to go look at the FROSH camp counselor list in wilder tower. But when I got there I was kinda bummed out to know that none of the freshman girls got it.. so I went on to my other two classes thinking it was gonna be a pretty lame day. Maggie and I came home and were just chillin until she mentioned getting a tattoo. I used my creativity to draw up a few sketches of what she could get and after much deliberation we headed off to the tattoo parlor. We went to the first place, and it was closed, and then the place we got it done TOOK forever. Maggie took the pain like a champ, and has a beautiful tattoo created by me :) which I'm kinda partial too.. obviously. Now we just got back from the dollar tree and we have to get ready for the Sigma Kappa chili cook off.. which should be fun, but I'm so exhausted that I'm not too thrilled.. haha and I need to go work out tonight too.. anyway thats the update for the day!!

Thursday, February 7, 2008

No Child Left Behind..

This is a part of an essay that I wrote last semester on "NCLB", It has some good information so I figured I would do those of you who are doing school assesment a favor and post it on here :)

No Child Left Behind was created with one specific goal in mind, “to ensure that all children have a fair, equal, and significant opportunity to obtain a high-quality education and reach, at a minimum, proficiency on challenging state academic achievement standards and state academic assessments and to close the achievement gap with accountability, flexibility, and choice, so that no child is left behind” (TDOE 4). Some of the governing principles and goals considered when constructing the NCLB program were increasing morale by rewarding good progress and penalizing failure, increasing flexibility for schools, developing quality teachers, creating higher literacy scores by promoting reading, informing parents of their children’s progress, giving the parents and students choices, improving the English proficiency level of students lacking thereof, and focusing on successful methods of teaching. The goals include having all students proficient in reading and math by the 2013-2014 school year, starting with the 2013-2014 class, all students will enter into the fourth grade proficient in reading, all students will be proficient in English, all teachers will meet all requirements for teaching by the 2005-2006 school year, all schools will be a safe, drug free, learning atmosphere, and all students will graduate from high school (TDOE 4).

Today..

So today was a horrible day for me. I went to the Memphis game and bowling last night, and came home in time to get a good nights rest, but my labrador was really sick and kept me up pretty much all night. This is something I wasn't exactly thrilled about. I got up this morning before class and took her to the vet and all that jazz. I had to swing back by the house and get Maggie to go to class. We were late, of course. lol But it wasn't out of laziness or anything, my sick dog is a legit reason to be late to class. She is my child. So school today was a DRAG. I could not wait to get home.. or so I thought. Maggie and I went to grab a bite to eat from quiznos subs ( which was emaculate, by the way) and then we picked up Lexi from the vet. It cost me 100 dollars in meds for her and I was so mad. I called my dad, and we kinda had a small falling out, and then my Mom was being frustrating too. Maggie and I went and cleaned the Harbor Town House for the last time, THANK the lord. The only thing I'll miss about that is the money we were making, which I need all that I can get. Then we came home and cleaned our own house. It smells so good, haha I love it.

One Tree Hill..

So I am absolutely obsessed with this show called One Tree Hill. I live for tuesday nights when it comes on... I know, I know, I'm a nerd. But I honestly love it, I can relate to almost everything in that show. I don't exactly know why I am in a quoting mood but tonight I am.

I was watching an episode from a previous season the other night and when I heard the character, Peyton Sawyer, say this, it kind of stuck in my mind...

"I spend a lot time being miserable, its like misery is an old friend, and it tricks you sometimes, into thinkin' that its just always gonna be there. That you can't be happy, but you can... you can walk away from pain... and i think bein' in love is the best way to do it"-peyton sawyer

I know it's something a character said, but it is still good advice. Coming from someone who has some experience in the misery department I completely agree that finding someone that makes you happy is the best way to get past that...

I hate depending on people, but honestly finding someone to be with is the most exhilarating thing in life. I definately don't think anyone should miss out on that experience!!

quote.

So for the past few months I've been dealing with an ex boyfriend and what to do about a guy that I used to be in love with and dated for 2 years. He still likes me but it will never be the same so I don't even entertain the idea of us being together. I read this quote.. and I don't really know who said it, but it just really touched me and I wanted to share it ;)

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers."
-anonymous

that line.. "even sunshine burns if you get too much" just proves what I was thinking.. even too much of a good thing can be bad..

gah I love that.

Monday, February 4, 2008

Superbowl...

I guess today was kinda the same as all my past few days.. I woke up this morning and didn’t really feel like going to my 9:10 class, I almost let Maggie convince me not to go, but I stood up to peer pressure. Lol After that class I went to history, and then took our first music test thing at home.. it was kind of obnoxious because I only had 50 minutes to take the test and our internet was going in and out and I was getting rather frustrated. After that Maggie and I cleaned AGAIN for six hours.. then worked out!! We are doing so good with our working out skills. Dedication is key. ;] Last night was the super bowl and let me just say I was so SAD that the patriots lost. I spent 30 dollars on crafty stuff to make a shirt, and then they lost. I watched the game at the Sigma Chi house and I had SO much fun. A lot of my Kappa Delta sisters were there and we all kicked back, listened to music, danced a little and got dates to FORMAL. Wohooo. I am so excited about spring break. It’s so close and I’m getting so pumped, we are all going to panama city and its gonna be an unforgettable experience. That’s all for today…

Friday, February 1, 2008

last minute blogg!!

So today was pretty packed, I had to wake up and go take that history test that I was really really really really really nervous about!!! I think it went pretty good, but I guess I will never know until I get my paper back. SCARYYY. I better have passed because I stayed up until 1:30 AM studying. After class I went to Harbor Town to clean.. AGAIN for six hours.. Then Maggie and I went to get our nails done, which took so long for some reason. It was so annoying, but my nails are pretty so that is all that matters. After that we went to eat at this really good Chinese buffet and had so much sushi. The thing is though they charge you a dollar for every sushi roll you don’t eat.. lol so Maggie stuffed 7 rolls in a sock that was in her purse so we wouldn’t have to pay. We were trying to be so secretive so the Chinese waitresses wouldn’t find out.. but I think they suspected us. Oh well.. well I got home and forgot I had one last blog so I’m just now done getting ready to go out with one of my Kappa Delta Sorority sisters to Jacob Wingfields birthday party. It should be pretty fun.