The beginning..

Hmm… where to start?
I guess I will back track a little bit into the past and open my world up a little bit so that when I begin to blog about my daily activities you will kind of have an idea where I’ve been.

I’ll start a few years back, the summer before junior year. I had recently begun dating this guy I liked my sophomore year that April. I really really liked him, and we were quite the pair. I never had any intentions to let that interfere with my friendship with my best friend at the time, Katie, but somehow it did. The situation is rather complicated and it was nothing that I really did wrong, but somehow she began to resent mine and Taylor’s relationship. I think it was partly out of jealousy, but mostly for attention. To my surprise, right before we started back to school that fall Katie decided that she wasn’t speaking to me anymore. Naturally I was upset, because Katie had been my best friend since the fifth grade. We had many little fights in the past, and they always blew over so I had no reason to believe that this one would not. But the Lord works in a strange way. When school started she still wouldn’t speak to me and so finally I decided to accept it. We had a lot of great memories from growing up, and despite the fact that we weren’t friends, I still respected them. She however did not. She began to tell some of my friends some personal things about my family that I had been hiding. Its not that I was embarrassed about my families shortcomings, but it was just a private matter that I was not emotionally ready to unleash. It was something that I should’ve been able to share with my world, when I was ready. But unfortunately, I was robbed of that opportunity. I was so frustrated with my life at that time, and I began to shut everyone out. It seemed no matter how bad I tried to let it go, it just kept coming back. Don’t get me wrong, I’m pretty damn fearless, but this girl ripped something in the core of my soul out. I had classes with her, but I got up every morning with a smile and embraced the life I had been given. After a few weeks of dealing with the situation I was in, and lots of long, tearful conversations with my dad, (who I adore), I made the decision to drop out of Bartlett High School. I say drop out like it’s a bad thing, but it wasn’t. I withdrew the last day of first semester of my junior year, and enrolled in a private school where I studied double time. I completed the second half of my junior year and my entire senior year in the spring semester of 2007. What I once thought was the worst thing that had ever happened to me, was the one thing that enabled me to excel. I used my pain to drive me to become a better person. Not a lot of people can say they completed a year and a half of high school in one small semester, but I can, and I’m pretty proud of it. I graduated in May of 2007 and my parents couldn’t have been more proud. I thought I would miss my friends from high school and I thought we would lose touch, but it was the exact opposite. The real ones stuck the summer out with me, which by the way was the best summer of my life, so far. I made and kept so many great friendships and had too many fun nights to count. I would be lost without my friends from high school. Although they are still seniors and I have moved on to college, we are still the best of friends, and something so small as where we go to school can’t stop us from being “the girls”. I have never laughed so much, drank so much, and yet still managed to keep my life together. I still had my boyfriend Taylor, who I was beginning to grow further and further apart from. I could’ve stopped it, but some how I didn’t want to. Its funny how love works, because I honestly loved him, with ALL my heart. I just felt like things weren’t the same and that we weren’t the same people we fell in love with. Instead of causing a big scene I just let the relationship run its course. Finally when it just couldn’t go on any longer, I broke up with him after two long years of love, fights, and precious memories. Surprisingly, this is a decision that I do not regret.

Well I’ve exceeded the 750 words already, what a shock? So I’m gonna stop for today and will continue the blast from the past tomorrow. Hope you enjoy reading this.